I used to think the folks in the Catholic blogosphere-at-large didn’t like me very much because I am rude. (I am.) You know…my Bipolar/Asperger thing. I get that. But then I read this. It seems (Disclaimer) very rude to me. Fine, I don’t care. God judges, not me. (Thank you, Lord.) Whatever, but I saw that it’s, well, rather viral.
Obviously, then, it’s not my rudeness that turns off folks in the Catholic blogosphere. At least….so it seems, else that wouldn’t be viral. Math, right? (What do I know, though?)
I get the argument, and I agree with it to a point. It’s not okay to go on lavish cruises during Lent. Right. It’s even worthy of a little snark. The Crescat has my applause for fitting in a reference to the red shirted folks on Star Trek. I also know that it’s not about me, and here I am, maybe, making it about me? It’s difficult for me not to do that. I’m working on that. Sorry. It’s just really confusing sometimes. I exist and have an opinion. It’s about what I think, right?
I guess I’m just trying to figure out how it is that one becomes accepted by my fellow Catholics in the Catholic blogosphere to the point where, say, I am not frequently blocked on Twitter or not responded to when I send emails or tweets or things like that, or booted off as a contributor to a team Catholic blog, and even whisper campaigns (I know about at least two of those, anyway, but don’t worry. I still love you just the same.) It seems I’m either ignored or hated. I DON’T MIND. I really don’t. It doesn’t cause me pain, or anything. It’s just very confusing to me. I can’t figure it out.
I love you all. There isn’t one among you whom I don’t both hope and expect to see in heaven, including those who fight with each other so much and seem on opposite sides of arguments. It’s just really confusing to me how one is supposed to fit in around here, but then, it’s a mental hazard I’ve grown rather accustomed to…and it makes me love Jesus all the more, so in that, I am grateful.
Whatever. Love you all, no matter who you are!!! I live in the wonderful world of the HIGHLY confused, yet (mostly) unfazed sheep…and I LOVE it here.
Jesu Christi passio sit semper in cordibus nostris